can you hear the whisper in the wind?

i swear i just wrote in this yesterday.... buut that was actually a week ago, oops :)

i've been super busy, we had some drama with my moms childcare, losing 2 kids, one peacefully and the other... not. haha. then a family party saturday, plus i had another party saturday night (80's!) and church/lunch/babysitting sunday. and you know, the normal school stuff.  so that is why i haven't written.
at the moment i'm having an allergy attack too, i was trying to be helpful and weed some in the back yard, but it makes me itchy sometimes. well this time i have full hives, all over. it's itchy. and i just took Benedryl which means i'm racing the time for when i pass out from that (i don't handle medication well for the most part... pain meds make me sick, allergy meds make me sleep. like theres no helping it i'm going to bed right here right now sleep)
also on sunday i got to get a little sun, which means i am now well on my way to my summer color. i tan super easily, and i can get dark. i'm very much looking forward to that this summer. since i was gone a month last summer in Malibu i didn't spend a lot of the summer in the sun.
what else happened? i got a lot of homework done, i re-enrolled for college this fall so that i'll no longer be a dual enrolled student, just a normal one (i get to skip being a freshmen, ha!) i had a night out with my mom on friday, that was fun. we got my dress for my birthday party (eeep! it's so cute) and went to see Beastly (really really good) plus some other late nighttime activities that may involve pink birds... hehe

well that's my week in a nutshell (i've always wanted to use that) busy, but fun. now i just have to figure out whats up for this weekend ;)

lately i've been thinking alot about what is my role in this life? why did God put me here, what for? do i even have some supreme purpose, or i'm a just a blob wandering around? i like to think i do, but sometimes it's hard to see.  while i was message back and forth with my friend Eric (this is like your 3rd mention trash boy!) i said something about how he was telling me what i already knew, but hadn't actually heard. and he said that sometimes, we just miss God's whisper until someone else points it out. i like that idea, and it makes me want to listen for it even more. that's what i've been trying to do, see and hear God, let Him whisper to me what i should be doing right now, let Him come back into my life and show me the way, instead of me guessing. and no, it isn't always obvious, but there is a certain beauty in finding Him, even when i'm struggling.

random fact
i am double jointed, my elbows, knees and shoulders all bend way to much. my elbows are the worst though, and they creep a lot of people out.
until next (not week...i hope) time
emilie
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