what does 2 + 2 equal again...?

i'm not as stressed anymore, i'm sure you'll all be glad to know. i got a TON of work done Tuesday and Wednesday. of course i still have a lot to do, but i have Thursday and some of Friday plus the weekend. i feel like it's gonna all work out now. i'm not in over me head :)

basically since i'm an Early Childhood Studies major, i play with children, take pictures and write what they do down, then analyze it, put it all together and turn that in. it's a lot more work then it sounds. the first part is fun. then it kinda sucks. but i actually really like school. i like learning. well besides math (i'm studying though!) my brain does really well with the child development stuff, i'm pretty good with history and English, even my criminal procedure class i do well in. math... well that's when the numbers start flipping and moving on the page. i can't remember my times tables worth crap (yes i have practiced and practiced. trust me, i've spent hours trying to get that thing down) and i use my fingers a lot. when i understand it and can focus, i do well. when i get frustrated, i start messing up. and because numbers are flipping everywhere (i have dyslexia, i have been able to overcome the spelling and writing issues, besides spelling, for the most part... the math is still the fight) i get frustrated quickly. it's a never ending cycle that i have to work through. it sucks, and frankly at times it makes me feel pretty dumb that i can't grasp simple math concepts easily. (please don't use this against me. because it really does suck) but it's a part of my life that i have to work out. so if you ever see me, please don't ask me to solve a math problem. i might kill you. i'm not saying anyone should feel sorry for me, or my teachers should go easy on me, it's my fight, not someone elses, but it's nice when people understand why i have such issues with it. it's not that i don't try, it just takes more work and effort for me then most. and also a lot longer to solve most problems :p

besides my math struggles, school really hasn't been that bad. it's packed full of work, but nothing that has been super overwhelming. i feel like i really have a handle on everything at the moment. and finals will be done with in 2 weeks. i can't wait. then it's almost my birthday, then graduation :D
once i'm 18 i plan on finding a job, so i can start making some of my own money besides babysitting (sorry, still to soon parents, give me a few more weeks) and then just enjoying my summer. staying up all night, beach trips, sleeping in and laying out in the sun... i cannot wait.

well time for some bed so i can get up in the morning. busy day! gonna hit the gym, wash my clothes and sheets, change my bed sheets and clean my room, plus throw in some school and skyping with Kev :) and then my last play for my theatre class (well now it really sounds busy!)

random fact
i hate nutella. i think its the most disgusting thing ever.
emilie