It's just been awhile. A long while actually. Life got the best of me. Since my last post I have been working 2 jobs, I'm a full time preschool teacher at Kings Kids Preschool, I also work part time at Bath and Body Works. I love both but it sure keeps me busy! On top of that I also started school as a full time student and I'm in the process of applying to 4 year colleges. Yikes. Want to make it even more crazy? I also found an amazing guy working at a camp for special needs kids in August, and now have a full time boyfriend also, his name is Brandon. Go check out my facebook and stalk him. ;) But to make it a little bit more complicated he lives in Livermore, about 40 minutes away. So this is my excuse for the lack of posts.
In other news. My dad also got a full time job! This is an answer to many, many prayers. It's hard to believe that the time in our life is over now. Not to say that things are great yet, I mean with so little money for so long we're still working our way out of it, but we all feel so much relief. It's amazing.
So yep, that's whats happened since July basically. I'm loving my jobs and life right now, even though I do feel a bit under the weather today. I'm busy but I don't think I'd have it any other way. My kids fill me with joy and make me laugh, Bath and Body Works is just fun, and Brandon is pretty amazing :) (I'm actually talking to him on the phone right now!)
So I'm going to try to update this more often, but no promises! It's nice being back!
Random fact
I finally sucked it up and went blond. I love it
Until the next one!
Emilie
Monday, September 19, 2011
Saturday, July 2, 2011
A year ago...
Well it's was just over a year ago that I made it to Malibu, the place that changed my life in so many ways. I'd really like to go back, but I don't know when that would ever happen... Without Malibu I would never have the relationship with God that I do now, and I couldn't be more thankful for that. It's so hard to believe that just over a year ago, on the 4th of July I was sharing my full testimony for the first time with the group... I can't think of a more freeing moment then that.
I miss it
.
God is now my number one. And I don't want to ever go back to how things were before that time. I just wish that everywhere could be my Malibu. And yes I guess I can make it like that, but finding that support system that I had there, that's the hard part. I have and hadn't been surrounded like that besides at Malibu. I mean, having over 40 people who truly care about you and love you with the love of God, that's intense. I have found a couple people like that sense, but not such a big group. Which I guess is quite hard to find in the "real world" but it sure would be nice.
Well besides remembering Malibu, I've just been hanging out these last few days, with some friends and such. I'm enjoying my summer and getting ready to really start work. Both at the preschool and Bath and Body Works.
That's about all that's going on in Emilie's life. Don't you feel all caught up?
Random fact
I can make a 3 leaf clover with my tongue
Emilie
I miss it
.
God is now my number one. And I don't want to ever go back to how things were before that time. I just wish that everywhere could be my Malibu. And yes I guess I can make it like that, but finding that support system that I had there, that's the hard part. I have and hadn't been surrounded like that besides at Malibu. I mean, having over 40 people who truly care about you and love you with the love of God, that's intense. I have found a couple people like that sense, but not such a big group. Which I guess is quite hard to find in the "real world" but it sure would be nice.
Well besides remembering Malibu, I've just been hanging out these last few days, with some friends and such. I'm enjoying my summer and getting ready to really start work. Both at the preschool and Bath and Body Works.
That's about all that's going on in Emilie's life. Don't you feel all caught up?
Random fact
I can make a 3 leaf clover with my tongue
Emilie
Friday, July 1, 2011
A day in the life.
Alright blog world. I've been busy. Since my last update I have also gotten a second job working nights and weekends at Bath and Body Works. So pretty soon you will be able to come see me and buy good smelling lotions and the like. YAY! I have my training/orientation for that tomorrow.
Also, as many of you are my friends on facebook (at least.... I think you are?) you would know by now that my grandma isn't doing well, she fell and broke her hip on Saturday, went into surgery Sunday and my mom ended up there with my aunt and uncle Tuesday. I came downstairs Tuesday at 6:15 to my dad telling me my mom was going to drive up that night with my aunt. I started to help her pack and pretty soon she was on a 9:45 flight to WA. So I then packed her for that and she was out the door by 7. It was crazy. I miss her a lot. My grandma is still having some health issues and needed a second surgery and now we are mostly waiting to see how things go...
Now on a bright note from all of this. My grandpa's (he passed away when I was about four, but I have SO many good memories with him, even at that age) old truck that he used to tow his boats (he built boats) is up in WA. I have been in love with it since I was about 15 and saw it, my grandma has always said that if I could get it home it was mine. Well now my uncle has said that he will bring it down for me in a trailer. I am SO excited. I love this truck. I believe it's a '73 Chevy Cheyenne, but again, I haven't seen it in 3 years. It's a beautiful light blue color and I love it. I know it's going to need work, but I was talking about buying a used car as soon as I could anyways, so I'll just put that money into MY truck :)
So since my mom left I have been helping my dad with taking over the childcare, but I've also been getting out as much as I can. So I have been coming home late and waking up early, but I figure I'm just practicing for when I have a full time job, part time job and am a full time student who still wants to have a life. I mean that's totally possible, right? :) Guess we'll see. If you find a girl passed out in random places, sound asleep, it's probably me.
Random fact
Even though tuna fish makes my jaw and mouth go numb, and also my stomach hurt, I still will eat it because I love it so much. Tuna casserole is probably one of my favorite foods. That I never get to eat...
Emilie
Also, as many of you are my friends on facebook (at least.... I think you are?) you would know by now that my grandma isn't doing well, she fell and broke her hip on Saturday, went into surgery Sunday and my mom ended up there with my aunt and uncle Tuesday. I came downstairs Tuesday at 6:15 to my dad telling me my mom was going to drive up that night with my aunt. I started to help her pack and pretty soon she was on a 9:45 flight to WA. So I then packed her for that and she was out the door by 7. It was crazy. I miss her a lot. My grandma is still having some health issues and needed a second surgery and now we are mostly waiting to see how things go...
Now on a bright note from all of this. My grandpa's (he passed away when I was about four, but I have SO many good memories with him, even at that age) old truck that he used to tow his boats (he built boats) is up in WA. I have been in love with it since I was about 15 and saw it, my grandma has always said that if I could get it home it was mine. Well now my uncle has said that he will bring it down for me in a trailer. I am SO excited. I love this truck. I believe it's a '73 Chevy Cheyenne, but again, I haven't seen it in 3 years. It's a beautiful light blue color and I love it. I know it's going to need work, but I was talking about buying a used car as soon as I could anyways, so I'll just put that money into MY truck :)
So since my mom left I have been helping my dad with taking over the childcare, but I've also been getting out as much as I can. So I have been coming home late and waking up early, but I figure I'm just practicing for when I have a full time job, part time job and am a full time student who still wants to have a life. I mean that's totally possible, right? :) Guess we'll see. If you find a girl passed out in random places, sound asleep, it's probably me.
Random fact
Even though tuna fish makes my jaw and mouth go numb, and also my stomach hurt, I still will eat it because I love it so much. Tuna casserole is probably one of my favorite foods. That I never get to eat...
Emilie
Monday, June 27, 2011
It's official
I am a preschool teacher.
I'm so excited. This is what I was doing all the paper work and doctors visits for, but it wasn't really official until today. I will be starting in July.
I can't believe that I actually got a job as a preschool teacher at the age of 18. How often does that happen? Not very.
Besides that awesome bit of news.... Yeah. I'm boring. I went on an adventure day with my best friend Kevin. It was a lot of fun. We went into Sunol. And as much as I hate hiking we did a bit, then visited Little Yosemite. I have the worst bug bites though. Remember, bug spray next time. Then I made the awesome choice to fall asleep laying on the grass the next day. I have this ability to forget that I am very allergic to grass. To the point that if I lay on it long enough I actually get cuts and lots of itchy red lines. Falling asleep in the grass is a good way to do that. So basically my legs itch like no other at the moment.
My summer is turning out amazing. And even though I'm going to be working for a lot of it from now on, I'm really excited to see what happens. Plus I'll still have the nights and weekends :)
We'll I'm wiped out. So this is goodnight.
Random fact
I'm really stretching myself and trying to grow a little garden in my window. I am very good at killing plants, but so far I have kept an Orchid alive for like 2 weeks, and it's blooming! The rest were just planted tonight. :)
Emilie
I'm so excited. This is what I was doing all the paper work and doctors visits for, but it wasn't really official until today. I will be starting in July.
I can't believe that I actually got a job as a preschool teacher at the age of 18. How often does that happen? Not very.
Besides that awesome bit of news.... Yeah. I'm boring. I went on an adventure day with my best friend Kevin. It was a lot of fun. We went into Sunol. And as much as I hate hiking we did a bit, then visited Little Yosemite. I have the worst bug bites though. Remember, bug spray next time. Then I made the awesome choice to fall asleep laying on the grass the next day. I have this ability to forget that I am very allergic to grass. To the point that if I lay on it long enough I actually get cuts and lots of itchy red lines. Falling asleep in the grass is a good way to do that. So basically my legs itch like no other at the moment.
My summer is turning out amazing. And even though I'm going to be working for a lot of it from now on, I'm really excited to see what happens. Plus I'll still have the nights and weekends :)
We'll I'm wiped out. So this is goodnight.
Random fact
I'm really stretching myself and trying to grow a little garden in my window. I am very good at killing plants, but so far I have kept an Orchid alive for like 2 weeks, and it's blooming! The rest were just planted tonight. :)
Emilie
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
The day GiGi was born. Well not really...
But she did come into my life :)
Basically over the past few days something went through my guinea pigs... I started out Saturday with 5, I have one left as of yesterday (poor Bubbles) :( My room got too quite and I didn't want to get another guinea pig and have that one sick, so GiGi the rat was brought home tonight. Girls Group (get it, G.G? ha.) went out to get doughnuts and while sitting there someone said that we should go to the pet store, I had said that I wanted a rat before so we went to the pet store and got a rat. Spur of the moment. But GiGi is adorable :)
Other then that, I haven't been up to much. I had to run around to a lot of doctors and places today and I have some more places to go and call and such tomorrow. Yes there is a point to all of this running around. And it will make it's way onto the blog some enough, but not tonight :)
look at that, a cliff hanger. :D
Well I am wiped out from the last few days. It's been busy, beach trip, today, Monday I did something... I think. Just a lot of running around. I have some more of that for the rest of the week planned out. YAY!
I'm tired. I'm going to bed. :)
Random Fact.
My first 3 guinea pig girls were named after the Powerpuff girls, Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup. One was thought to be named a boy and named Bruno. But then we found out he was really a she and it was changed to Betsy. I felt bad she wasn't part of the group
Emilie
Basically over the past few days something went through my guinea pigs... I started out Saturday with 5, I have one left as of yesterday (poor Bubbles) :( My room got too quite and I didn't want to get another guinea pig and have that one sick, so GiGi the rat was brought home tonight. Girls Group (get it, G.G? ha.) went out to get doughnuts and while sitting there someone said that we should go to the pet store, I had said that I wanted a rat before so we went to the pet store and got a rat. Spur of the moment. But GiGi is adorable :)
Isn't she a cutie?
Other then that, I haven't been up to much. I had to run around to a lot of doctors and places today and I have some more places to go and call and such tomorrow. Yes there is a point to all of this running around. And it will make it's way onto the blog some enough, but not tonight :)
look at that, a cliff hanger. :D
Well I am wiped out from the last few days. It's been busy, beach trip, today, Monday I did something... I think. Just a lot of running around. I have some more of that for the rest of the week planned out. YAY!
I'm tired. I'm going to bed. :)
Random Fact.
My first 3 guinea pig girls were named after the Powerpuff girls, Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup. One was thought to be named a boy and named Bruno. But then we found out he was really a she and it was changed to Betsy. I felt bad she wasn't part of the group
Emilie
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Rantings.
I don't like change.
I don't like people leaving.
I don't like people changing.
I don't like be lied to.
I don't like being used.
I don't like it when people won't grow up and just tell me something.
I hate it when I'm not worth the truth.
If you aren't happy with something, tell me. If things changed, tell me. Don't just not show up to something you said you would be at. Don't let me find out from other people what you were doing instead. Just tell me.
(Yes I realize this is passive aggressive, but I have been totally ignored otherwise. So I don't care.)
Okay, that being said. I am fine. I'm annoyed, but fine. :)
Lets see. Since I've last been on here not much has happened. But it is summer, so isn't that a good thing? I think so.
I went to college group for the first time. Because I can now! It was fun. I want to see what it's like when we get more into a study as well though.
Today I went to Great America with Brynna. I had fun, but now I'm really tired and I have about 5 new bruises. I only know where one came from. But all of them hurt.
Also something else very exciting happened today. But I'm not going to post it until some final details are worked out. So stay tuned ;)
Random fact
I am 99% sure I have Misophonia. Which is a hate of nosies. In my case food sounds. That is why I get annoyed and distracted when I am eating with other people, no matter how hard I try to control it.
I don't like people leaving.
I don't like people changing.
I don't like be lied to.
I don't like being used.
I don't like it when people won't grow up and just tell me something.
I hate it when I'm not worth the truth.
If you aren't happy with something, tell me. If things changed, tell me. Don't just not show up to something you said you would be at. Don't let me find out from other people what you were doing instead. Just tell me.
(Yes I realize this is passive aggressive, but I have been totally ignored otherwise. So I don't care.)
Okay, that being said. I am fine. I'm annoyed, but fine. :)
Lets see. Since I've last been on here not much has happened. But it is summer, so isn't that a good thing? I think so.
I went to college group for the first time. Because I can now! It was fun. I want to see what it's like when we get more into a study as well though.
Today I went to Great America with Brynna. I had fun, but now I'm really tired and I have about 5 new bruises. I only know where one came from. But all of them hurt.
Also something else very exciting happened today. But I'm not going to post it until some final details are worked out. So stay tuned ;)
Random fact
I am 99% sure I have Misophonia. Which is a hate of nosies. In my case food sounds. That is why I get annoyed and distracted when I am eating with other people, no matter how hard I try to control it.
Emilie
Monday, June 13, 2011
And then it hit me.
I found this list today. (It's below) Don't even ask why I was looking up date ideas... I don't have a boyfriend. Nor am I going on a date soon. (Well that I know of :p)
But that isn't what I wanted to really talk about. I guess it really hit me that I have graduated, I've turned 18, I'm an adult moving on to the adult life. Last night we had a grad banquet at my church. First Matt (youth pastor) talked about me, then Mrs. Fisher (she's my mentor and I love her) then what really hit me was my mom got up and talked. She doesn't talk in groups and I really didn't think she would. She made me cry. And my dad spoke after her. And by then it was hitting me that I finished it. I really did it. I did the work and I graduated. Then today I sat and read my book of notes from my grad party. That made me cry again. It's kind of overwhelming to have all this actual happen. A year and a half ago I was ready to drop out of school and just find a job. But I didn't. I did it. I didn't cry last week at the first ceremony. I didn't cry Saturday. Just Sunday and today. Oh boy. I never thought this day would come. Now I'm not sure how I feel about it being here. It's a relief and scary at the same time. But I know I'll make it.
1. Pretend you’ve never met, then loudly try out lame pickup lines in a swanky bar. Act like they worked.
2. Go on a walking journey and every fifteen feet draw a chalk arrow in the direction you’re going. At the end of the trip, leave a big pile of chalk.
3. Create photo evidence suggesting that you went on an adventure that didn’t really happen.
4. Go for a drive. You can only make right-hand turns. When you finally get stuck, turn around and then you can only make left-hand turns. Repeat until you find something interesting. Take pictures along the way!
5. Build forts out of furniture and blankets, and wage war with paper airplanes.
6. Go to a major chain bookstore, and leave notes to future readers in copies of your favorite books.
7. Write a piece of fiction together. Outside at a cafe. Ask strangers when you get stuck.
8. Try and visit as many people as you can in one night, and turn as many things inside their apartment upside down as you can, without them noticing.
9. Do the lamest tourist thing in your area that you have both secretly wanted to do forever. Have an unabashed good time!
10. Hide and seek in the park.
11. Go around the city with sidewalk chalk and draw hearts with equations inside on random things.
12. Drive somewhere unknown and have dinner in a city you’ve never been to. With fake names.
13. Go for a drive with the passenger blindfolded, choosing directions at random. See where you end up.
14. Dress up as pirates, commandeer shopping carts, and have a war upon the high seas.. er, parking lot.
15. Go on a search for as many good climbing trees as possible, climb as high as you both can in all of them, compile photo evidence.
16. Rent a movie you’ve never seen before. Set on mute and improvise dialogue.
17. Dress up as pirates and go parrot shopping at local pet stores.
18. Go to the airport, get the cheapest, soonest departing flight to anywhere when you show up, and stay there for a weekend.
19. Walk around a city and perform short silent plays in front of security cameras.
20. In the middle of the night, drive to the beach, so you arrive just as the sun is rising. Have a breakfast picnic, then fall asleep together. Bring a sun umbrella.
21. Dress up as superheros and stop at least one petty crime ie. jaywalking, littering….
22. Go to a minor league baseball game under the stars. Tell each other stories about how bad you are at athletics. Randomly cheer for both teams. Eat lots of Cracker Jack.
23. With camera and pair of boots, make photolog of a day in the life of the invisible man.
24. Walk around the city all night and find a place to eat breakfast at dawn.
25. Go to a restaurant and convince the cook to create something completely new for you.
I think having fun is the most important part of any relationship.
Random fact
I haven't owned a bike since I was 12. I'm trying to decide if I want to get one now.
Emilie
But that isn't what I wanted to really talk about. I guess it really hit me that I have graduated, I've turned 18, I'm an adult moving on to the adult life. Last night we had a grad banquet at my church. First Matt (youth pastor) talked about me, then Mrs. Fisher (she's my mentor and I love her) then what really hit me was my mom got up and talked. She doesn't talk in groups and I really didn't think she would. She made me cry. And my dad spoke after her. And by then it was hitting me that I finished it. I really did it. I did the work and I graduated. Then today I sat and read my book of notes from my grad party. That made me cry again. It's kind of overwhelming to have all this actual happen. A year and a half ago I was ready to drop out of school and just find a job. But I didn't. I did it. I didn't cry last week at the first ceremony. I didn't cry Saturday. Just Sunday and today. Oh boy. I never thought this day would come. Now I'm not sure how I feel about it being here. It's a relief and scary at the same time. But I know I'll make it.
1. Pretend you’ve never met, then loudly try out lame pickup lines in a swanky bar. Act like they worked.
2. Go on a walking journey and every fifteen feet draw a chalk arrow in the direction you’re going. At the end of the trip, leave a big pile of chalk.
3. Create photo evidence suggesting that you went on an adventure that didn’t really happen.
4. Go for a drive. You can only make right-hand turns. When you finally get stuck, turn around and then you can only make left-hand turns. Repeat until you find something interesting. Take pictures along the way!
5. Build forts out of furniture and blankets, and wage war with paper airplanes.
6. Go to a major chain bookstore, and leave notes to future readers in copies of your favorite books.
7. Write a piece of fiction together. Outside at a cafe. Ask strangers when you get stuck.
8. Try and visit as many people as you can in one night, and turn as many things inside their apartment upside down as you can, without them noticing.
9. Do the lamest tourist thing in your area that you have both secretly wanted to do forever. Have an unabashed good time!
10. Hide and seek in the park.
11. Go around the city with sidewalk chalk and draw hearts with equations inside on random things.
12. Drive somewhere unknown and have dinner in a city you’ve never been to. With fake names.
13. Go for a drive with the passenger blindfolded, choosing directions at random. See where you end up.
14. Dress up as pirates, commandeer shopping carts, and have a war upon the high seas.. er, parking lot.
15. Go on a search for as many good climbing trees as possible, climb as high as you both can in all of them, compile photo evidence.
16. Rent a movie you’ve never seen before. Set on mute and improvise dialogue.
17. Dress up as pirates and go parrot shopping at local pet stores.
18. Go to the airport, get the cheapest, soonest departing flight to anywhere when you show up, and stay there for a weekend.
19. Walk around a city and perform short silent plays in front of security cameras.
20. In the middle of the night, drive to the beach, so you arrive just as the sun is rising. Have a breakfast picnic, then fall asleep together. Bring a sun umbrella.
21. Dress up as superheros and stop at least one petty crime ie. jaywalking, littering….
22. Go to a minor league baseball game under the stars. Tell each other stories about how bad you are at athletics. Randomly cheer for both teams. Eat lots of Cracker Jack.
23. With camera and pair of boots, make photolog of a day in the life of the invisible man.
24. Walk around the city all night and find a place to eat breakfast at dawn.
25. Go to a restaurant and convince the cook to create something completely new for you.
I think having fun is the most important part of any relationship.
Random fact
I haven't owned a bike since I was 12. I'm trying to decide if I want to get one now.
Emilie
Saturday, June 11, 2011
For the 2nd time. I did it
Well guys, it's official. I am a no longer a high school student. I'm a college student now, and an adult. Yikes. I sure don't feel old enough to be this old. I remember being in like 3rd grade thinking about how cool the older kids in high school were. I don't feel cool. But hey, maybe in the eyes of a 3rd grader I am (that's an accomplishment!) Well I am wiped out. Thank you to everyone who made today awesome. I loved it. But now I am tired. And I have to be at church in the morning. Yay.
Goodnight people
Pictures are up on facebook :)
Random fact
I have two diplomas.
Emilie
Goodnight people
Pictures are up on facebook :)
Random fact
I have two diplomas.
Emilie
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Take me back.
I'm loving Kate Nash right now. I have for awhile but I seem to be in a mood for the last few days that just begs for her voice (that ended up sounding somewhat creepy)Anyway, tomorrow I have my graduation rehearsal. And then I graduate on Saturday. And this time, it's it. I'm done. No longer a high school senior. I'm pretty excited, but kind of weirded out at the same time. This was something I looked forward to for so long, imagining the day I graduated. It was something for the big kids, I never thought I'd be that old. And now I want to go back to the 5 year old girl that thought high schoolers were so cool and only had to worry about if I could find the matching skirt for my dolls shirt. As much fun as it is to think about going away to school the actual process is stressful and overwhelming at times. But I know I'll make it, I mean how many other people have done it? Even with as difficult as it is to work with Ohlone sometimes. (UGH.) I'm sure that at some point I will get there... right?
I think what I'm most excited about is joining college groups this summer. I'm wanting that deeper connection and group for God. I don't like getting the watered down stuff all the time. I want the hard, jarring, painful, sweet, deep and beautiful truth. I want Malibu again. But I don't want to have to travel into another country to find it. I want to find that here. I want to find my place in God. I want to find my spot where I hear Him. Like my little log on the outside of the island. I want that again. (Yes I realize this probably doesn't make any sense to you unless you have been reading my blog from the start. You might want to back track to review) I want to see God waving hi to me from a leaf. I want to jump into the ocean carefree and be truly, fully and completely happy. That is what I want. I want people who aren't scared to speak the truth to me. The friend who listens to my heart and then sits and prays before he talks me through my hurts. I want the leader who doesn't judge my story. And I want the girl who can relate to me in every way and neither one of us is scared to open up and talk about our hurt and pain. That's what I want. I want the friends who see one look on my face and hug me. I want Teri to lead my in a 10 minute Bible study that changes my thinking and life forever. I want to sit with Bob and listen to him talk about meeting world leaders and bringing them into his home. I want Brandon Heath to grab me by the hand again and the drive (boat?) me across the ocean, just because he wanted to surprise us. I want Bob's sons to take us back across the ocean and then do laps around the camp games to make us laugh just because they can. I want to serve with those girls again, and guess campers orders or even remember names just to see a smile. I want to talk to that kid who tells me Glee songs are annoying, or see the light in the young mans eyes who helped me carry soda across camp as he told me how much fun he was having.
I just want to feel that community again.
I want it so bad...
Random fact
I hate moths. And there is one in my bathroom.
Emilie
I think what I'm most excited about is joining college groups this summer. I'm wanting that deeper connection and group for God. I don't like getting the watered down stuff all the time. I want the hard, jarring, painful, sweet, deep and beautiful truth. I want Malibu again. But I don't want to have to travel into another country to find it. I want to find that here. I want to find my place in God. I want to find my spot where I hear Him. Like my little log on the outside of the island. I want that again. (Yes I realize this probably doesn't make any sense to you unless you have been reading my blog from the start. You might want to back track to review) I want to see God waving hi to me from a leaf. I want to jump into the ocean carefree and be truly, fully and completely happy. That is what I want. I want people who aren't scared to speak the truth to me. The friend who listens to my heart and then sits and prays before he talks me through my hurts. I want the leader who doesn't judge my story. And I want the girl who can relate to me in every way and neither one of us is scared to open up and talk about our hurt and pain. That's what I want. I want the friends who see one look on my face and hug me. I want Teri to lead my in a 10 minute Bible study that changes my thinking and life forever. I want to sit with Bob and listen to him talk about meeting world leaders and bringing them into his home. I want Brandon Heath to grab me by the hand again and the drive (boat?) me across the ocean, just because he wanted to surprise us. I want Bob's sons to take us back across the ocean and then do laps around the camp games to make us laugh just because they can. I want to serve with those girls again, and guess campers orders or even remember names just to see a smile. I want to talk to that kid who tells me Glee songs are annoying, or see the light in the young mans eyes who helped me carry soda across camp as he told me how much fun he was having.
I just want to feel that community again.
I want it so bad...
Random fact
I hate moths. And there is one in my bathroom.
Emilie
Monday, June 6, 2011
Because the girl that you thought you knew. She's so gone.
Well it's that time again. Time to blog.My head is somewhat of a mess right now. And it has been for awhile I guess. I feel like my heart and my head don't always line up. And I often don't know which one is right.
I find it odd that right now I'm the girl that's looking at going thousands of miles away to school in a year. I never thought I would even go to college. For awhile I didn't even think I would graduate high school. I think it was because I was never going to be that girl that I decided I would. I don't understand myself sometimes, you tell me I can't do something and guess what? I'll do it. That doesn't always work out the best for me, but sometimes it really does. My life is nothing like I thought it would be if you had asked me a year ago where I would be today. Nothing. And it's hard for me to totally change my dreams and focus in life, but I'm excited to do it. I'm excited to see where God takes me. And I'm finally learning that saying no to God, just doesn't work all that often...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7ulArWYOGI
I started reading James tonight. James 1 to be exact.
I really am looking for that moment again, the big "ah ha!". I want to find it this summer.
But right now my thoughts are with this. Prayer.
Sometimes I feel like Christians throw the word around to often.
"I have a test tomorrow, pray for me!"
"I'm really tired, pray for me!"
"I have a long drive this weekend, pray for me!"
Not that I have ANYTHING against the power of prayer. I truly believe in prayer, but I also believe in living your life and responsibility for your actions. Hey, you didn't study for that test. You didn't go to bed until 3 am. Yes I believe in prayer as a lifestyle, but don't you have to actually try? It's like that joke were a homeless man prays every morning that he wins the lottery, and after months he is mad at God for never helping him, when God yells down "would you just buy a ticket?! Then we can talk!" Sure God helps you through prayer, but you have to meet Him halfway (or at least somewhere along the way). That's what I think. Feel free to debate me on that one.
Random fact
I always over think everything. It's my worst habit that I'm trying to break.
Emilie
I find it odd that right now I'm the girl that's looking at going thousands of miles away to school in a year. I never thought I would even go to college. For awhile I didn't even think I would graduate high school. I think it was because I was never going to be that girl that I decided I would. I don't understand myself sometimes, you tell me I can't do something and guess what? I'll do it. That doesn't always work out the best for me, but sometimes it really does. My life is nothing like I thought it would be if you had asked me a year ago where I would be today. Nothing. And it's hard for me to totally change my dreams and focus in life, but I'm excited to do it. I'm excited to see where God takes me. And I'm finally learning that saying no to God, just doesn't work all that often...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7ulArWYOGI
I started reading James tonight. James 1 to be exact.
I really am looking for that moment again, the big "ah ha!". I want to find it this summer.
But right now my thoughts are with this. Prayer.
Sometimes I feel like Christians throw the word around to often.
"I have a test tomorrow, pray for me!"
"I'm really tired, pray for me!"
"I have a long drive this weekend, pray for me!"
Not that I have ANYTHING against the power of prayer. I truly believe in prayer, but I also believe in living your life and responsibility for your actions. Hey, you didn't study for that test. You didn't go to bed until 3 am. Yes I believe in prayer as a lifestyle, but don't you have to actually try? It's like that joke were a homeless man prays every morning that he wins the lottery, and after months he is mad at God for never helping him, when God yells down "would you just buy a ticket?! Then we can talk!" Sure God helps you through prayer, but you have to meet Him halfway (or at least somewhere along the way). That's what I think. Feel free to debate me on that one.
Random fact
I always over think everything. It's my worst habit that I'm trying to break.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
I did it!
well i did it.i graduated for the first time.
and i still get one more try next weekend :)
http://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.php?fbid=2090191215374&set=t.1263046129&type=1&theater
random fact
i can cook and bake, but toasters and i don't get along...
emilie
and i still get one more try next weekend :)
http://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.php?fbid=2090191215374&set=t.1263046129&type=1&theater
random fact
i can cook and bake, but toasters and i don't get along...
emilie
Monday, May 30, 2011
now i can do cool things, like ride my bike without a helmet!
because i'm an adult that is. (don't worry mom... it's not like i have a bike anyways!)
so i don't feel any different still. i mean like it's really fun to say "i'm 18" and i signed a form for a background check (good thing i didn't get arrested in the 2 days i was 18 before that!) but other then that, nothing has changed. and i guess i'm one of very few brand new adults who didn't go buy a lottery ticket on my birthday (shame on me)
i signed the form to pierce my nose (i love it. even if it feels weird still. update, i finally sneezed, it wasn't that bad) and that's about it. ha. Kristen told me i wasn't allowed to hit on minors anymore, but on the bright side i can go for the older men! (kidding mom and dad... mostly)
but all in all, age is really just that. an age. a number. a digit that i write down. not that i mind. i'm happy i made it this far, but i really don't feel all that adult yet. but on the flip side i don't feel like a kid either.
i'm sure i'll figure this out someday.
maybe.
other then my birthday the start of my summer has been uneventful. which i really needed after this school year. i tested into the math class i needed and got the schedule i wanted (YES!) which is awesome. and i think next semester will be a good one, but i'm glad for this break. i graduate the first time in just a few days. the second time in just a week and a few days (your all invited. party at my house after. yay! june 11th) so i guess i'm starting to feel more grown up. i get to join the college group at church soon, which i'm really looking forward too. i just hope i can find that deeper connection soon. it's what i'm really looking for, i just don't know for sure where yet....
but i guess that is a part of life. searching for the next thing. searching for what we want. searching for someone to love. but really shouldn't that searching be for God? i wish it was easier to just live that way. live in God. it sounds amazing. and it's times like these that i really start to miss Malibu and want to find my Malibu here....
random fact
i hate wearing shoes or socks. hate it. my feet suffer in the winter and in the summer i'm barefoot all the time
emilie
so i don't feel any different still. i mean like it's really fun to say "i'm 18" and i signed a form for a background check (good thing i didn't get arrested in the 2 days i was 18 before that!) but other then that, nothing has changed. and i guess i'm one of very few brand new adults who didn't go buy a lottery ticket on my birthday (shame on me)
i signed the form to pierce my nose (i love it. even if it feels weird still. update, i finally sneezed, it wasn't that bad) and that's about it. ha. Kristen told me i wasn't allowed to hit on minors anymore, but on the bright side i can go for the older men! (kidding mom and dad... mostly)
but all in all, age is really just that. an age. a number. a digit that i write down. not that i mind. i'm happy i made it this far, but i really don't feel all that adult yet. but on the flip side i don't feel like a kid either.
i'm sure i'll figure this out someday.
maybe.
other then my birthday the start of my summer has been uneventful. which i really needed after this school year. i tested into the math class i needed and got the schedule i wanted (YES!) which is awesome. and i think next semester will be a good one, but i'm glad for this break. i graduate the first time in just a few days. the second time in just a week and a few days (your all invited. party at my house after. yay! june 11th) so i guess i'm starting to feel more grown up. i get to join the college group at church soon, which i'm really looking forward too. i just hope i can find that deeper connection soon. it's what i'm really looking for, i just don't know for sure where yet....
but i guess that is a part of life. searching for the next thing. searching for what we want. searching for someone to love. but really shouldn't that searching be for God? i wish it was easier to just live that way. live in God. it sounds amazing. and it's times like these that i really start to miss Malibu and want to find my Malibu here....
random fact
i hate wearing shoes or socks. hate it. my feet suffer in the winter and in the summer i'm barefoot all the time
emilie
Thursday, May 26, 2011
The big day
today, i turned 18.yay me.
it wasn't a super eventful day, but a good one. i went to lunch/mall with my friends Emily and Amanda. then I skyped with Kevin for awhile, Tricia came over and we went to Inkies and i got my nose pierced.(there is a picture on my fb page http://www.facebook.com/emilie.elizabeth) that was pretty cool. not only that, but the same guy did it who pierced my belly button over a year ago and as soon as i walked in, he remembered me. i don't think you can get better customer service then that! after that i went out to dinner with my family. we went to BJ's (it was my first time ever!) i got these TOMS
http://www.toms.com/catalog/product/view/id/7819/s/neon-green-crochet-women-s-classics/category/112/
which i am in love with. they are way brighter then in the picture haha. i'm so excited to wear them this summer :D
so it was a good birthday
i really don't feel any different yet... should i? oh well. at least i can say i made it!
and thank you to everyone who made it special or wished me happy birthday!
random fact
i have never been so scared to sneeze in my life. i have no idea what it will feel like...
emilie
it wasn't a super eventful day, but a good one. i went to lunch/mall with my friends Emily and Amanda. then I skyped with Kevin for awhile, Tricia came over and we went to Inkies and i got my nose pierced.(there is a picture on my fb page http://www.facebook.com/emilie.elizabeth) that was pretty cool. not only that, but the same guy did it who pierced my belly button over a year ago and as soon as i walked in, he remembered me. i don't think you can get better customer service then that! after that i went out to dinner with my family. we went to BJ's (it was my first time ever!) i got these TOMS
http://www.toms.com/catalog/product/view/id/7819/s/neon-green-crochet-women-s-classics/category/112/
which i am in love with. they are way brighter then in the picture haha. i'm so excited to wear them this summer :D
so it was a good birthday
i really don't feel any different yet... should i? oh well. at least i can say i made it!
and thank you to everyone who made it special or wished me happy birthday!
random fact
i have never been so scared to sneeze in my life. i have no idea what it will feel like...
emilie
Sunday, May 22, 2011
we now return you to your regularly scheduled blog...
life has an interesting way of coming about.i still feel like i'm just searching for something more...
i haven't been writing as much on her because i keep other writings as well. a more private file if you will. some stories and poems and such... and a way more personal level. and at this point in my life i need to really spill out my thoughts. some of it might make it's way here at some point, but not yet.
basically. i turn 18 on thursday. yikes. and then the next weekend i graduate the first time, and the weekend after that the second time. yes i get to graduate twice. once with the homeschool group, the other time on campus. i'm excited but it really snuck up on me...
my life feels crazy right now, i'm trying to get a job, figure out where-ish i want to transfer to in a year and get my class schedule set for next semester, all while still trying to have a life. and it sucks that i seem to let God sink to the bottom of the list. but i've really been trying to work on that, which is why the blog has snuck even farther down to the bottom.
i just wish i was better at making sure i made it a priority everyday, instead of an option if i have time after i watch my tv shows and do my laundry and clean my room and everything else i can think of.
everything was so much easier in Malibu, and even afterwards when i had that spark still. i guess i'm looking for that spark again, something to light me on fire and get my butt moving.
it doesn't help that at this point i feel somewhat... lost. sometimes i wish i could just go back in time and see if i could change the way things turned out. even though i know what happened must have been for the best. it doesn't help me accept it. and sometimes i wonder if i'm just hurting myself more by dwelling on it.
i don't want to forever, i know i need to move on with my life. but it's so hard. i just don't know what to even feel sometimes.
well this ended up being a semi depressing post. really i'm super excited for my birthday and graduation. i guess i just want my answers. and i want them now. patience has never been my thing. :)
random fact.
whenever i put on chap stick i have to put like 50 layers on. and i will do it absent mindfully while i'm in conversation with someone. it's my awkward habit. please, tell me to stop if i do it to you.
emilie
i haven't been writing as much on her because i keep other writings as well. a more private file if you will. some stories and poems and such... and a way more personal level. and at this point in my life i need to really spill out my thoughts. some of it might make it's way here at some point, but not yet.
basically. i turn 18 on thursday. yikes. and then the next weekend i graduate the first time, and the weekend after that the second time. yes i get to graduate twice. once with the homeschool group, the other time on campus. i'm excited but it really snuck up on me...
my life feels crazy right now, i'm trying to get a job, figure out where-ish i want to transfer to in a year and get my class schedule set for next semester, all while still trying to have a life. and it sucks that i seem to let God sink to the bottom of the list. but i've really been trying to work on that, which is why the blog has snuck even farther down to the bottom.
i just wish i was better at making sure i made it a priority everyday, instead of an option if i have time after i watch my tv shows and do my laundry and clean my room and everything else i can think of.
everything was so much easier in Malibu, and even afterwards when i had that spark still. i guess i'm looking for that spark again, something to light me on fire and get my butt moving.
it doesn't help that at this point i feel somewhat... lost. sometimes i wish i could just go back in time and see if i could change the way things turned out. even though i know what happened must have been for the best. it doesn't help me accept it. and sometimes i wonder if i'm just hurting myself more by dwelling on it.
i don't want to forever, i know i need to move on with my life. but it's so hard. i just don't know what to even feel sometimes.
well this ended up being a semi depressing post. really i'm super excited for my birthday and graduation. i guess i just want my answers. and i want them now. patience has never been my thing. :)
random fact.
whenever i put on chap stick i have to put like 50 layers on. and i will do it absent mindfully while i'm in conversation with someone. it's my awkward habit. please, tell me to stop if i do it to you.
emilie
Saturday, May 21, 2011
I found....
My Bucket List!
enjoy, i need to get some more of this crossed off! The highlighted ones are the ones that i have finished
enjoy, i need to get some more of this crossed off! The highlighted ones are the ones that i have finished
My Bucket List
1. Go on a Disney cruise
2. Spend a whole day getting lost driving with someone I love
3. Pierce my belly button
4. Kiss in the rain
5. Build a huge snow fort
6. Watch the stars on a rooftop
7. Kiss under mistletoe
8. Go to the circus
9. Take pictures in a photo booth
10. Find my dream wedding dress
11. Adopt a baby
12. Ride in a hot air balloon
13. Watch every great Disney movie in a day
14. Go to the American Girl store
15. Sing solo in front of a crowd
16. Swim with dolphins
17. Rescue a pet
18. Own a house
19. Have my dream kitchen in teal, green or yellow
20. Ride a tandem bike
21. Go on a long road trip
22. Learn yoga
23. Go to Hawaii
24. Pet/ride a zebra
25. Have an epic Nerf gun fight in the park at midnight
26. Jump on an old bed/mattress until it breaks
27. Watch a sunset on the beach
28. Watch a sunrise on the beach
29. Play a giant game of leap-frog through a public place
30. Get the lead in a play
31. Take a dance class again
32. Get a tattoo
33. Go to a spa
34. Spend an entire day in bed, but not because I’m sick
35. Sit in front of a fire all day under blankets
36. Build a massive fort that takes over a whole room
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
done done done done done done done
that's right.SUMMER BREAK!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
so excited.
i plan on sleeping, hanging out and just not doing school a lot this summer :)
so i have made plans to go to a hardcore (right?) show on Friday. now if you know me, this is not my type of music. at all. but my friends are playing their first show. so i'm going.
and then, in just a week now, it's my birthday!!!!! :D
i'm quite excited. i will be 18. yeeeeees
besides that i haven't done a lot. i mean, finals kind of take over your life a bit. and now i just wait to see my grades. i think that's worse then anything else. i know i have an A in my theatre appreciation class :)
but i'm waiting for the rest still.
besides that, i plan on relaxing at bit this week. i need to clean my room and wash my clothes, you know, so i don't walk around smelly (it's for you guys really) and getting some job apps ready. that and sleep. yes.
until then, i'm going to go enjoy my tv. and then sleep. a lot.
i love summer
now can it just get warm?
random fact
i have a huge fear of driving behind a truck or a car with stuff tied on, on, to it. i don't want anything to come through my windshield.
until later
emilie
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
so excited.
i plan on sleeping, hanging out and just not doing school a lot this summer :)
so i have made plans to go to a hardcore (right?) show on Friday. now if you know me, this is not my type of music. at all. but my friends are playing their first show. so i'm going.
and then, in just a week now, it's my birthday!!!!! :D
i'm quite excited. i will be 18. yeeeeees
besides that i haven't done a lot. i mean, finals kind of take over your life a bit. and now i just wait to see my grades. i think that's worse then anything else. i know i have an A in my theatre appreciation class :)
but i'm waiting for the rest still.
besides that, i plan on relaxing at bit this week. i need to clean my room and wash my clothes, you know, so i don't walk around smelly (it's for you guys really) and getting some job apps ready. that and sleep. yes.
until then, i'm going to go enjoy my tv. and then sleep. a lot.
i love summer
now can it just get warm?
random fact
i have a huge fear of driving behind a truck or a car with stuff tied on, on, to it. i don't want anything to come through my windshield.
until later
emilie
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
life, it happens
well hello there. i haven't been on here for a bit. school is finally winding down. i'm planning my 18th birthday and my graduation (yikes) and getting ready for finals. thankfully, 3 of my classes have decided not to have finals or have projects instead. and all of those are already turned in (sweeeet) so i feel like i'm doing pretty well at them moment. i have some studying to finish and that's about it.
so what's been up. well i went to go see a counselor at Ohlone, who helped me figure out some of my classes and confirmed that i am on track to graduate with my AA in Early Childhood Studies in Spring of 2012! and that i will be a prime transfer candidate. YES! frankly that helped take a lot of stress off of me. now i have to really start looking for schools and figure out where i want to apply to and where i REALLY want to go. kinda scary, not gonna lie. but i'm excited at the same time..
lets see, what else have i been up too? we'll i have figured out a few places i'd like to apply for a job at as soon as i'm 18. i decided i would just wait until after my birthday, it'll make things a little bit easier for me. and the places i want to apply to you have to be 18 anyways.
i have just over 2 weeks until that happens btw. wow.
and other then that. well i haven't been doing much. school kind of took over after my return from the Mission trip. haha. not that i mind, i knew i'd have to catch up, but it was so much at once and now, it's really calm again and i don't know what to do with myself.
i think Thursday i will try to get my graduation announcements out. that would be good. or at least start getting them addressed. that will take forever... haha.
i feel like i'm at a really good place right now. no i don't have everything figured out. but i'm happy with who i am and what is going on around me. somethings are still up in the air, but i can't expect to have EVERYTHING in place at once right? and as of right now, i'm fine waiting for juuuust a bit.
but that might change in the morning ;)
random fact
i don't know how i will ever sleep anywhere besides my closet. i don't think i'll ever find a spot as cozy as it is in here!
i smell summer!
emilie
so what's been up. well i went to go see a counselor at Ohlone, who helped me figure out some of my classes and confirmed that i am on track to graduate with my AA in Early Childhood Studies in Spring of 2012! and that i will be a prime transfer candidate. YES! frankly that helped take a lot of stress off of me. now i have to really start looking for schools and figure out where i want to apply to and where i REALLY want to go. kinda scary, not gonna lie. but i'm excited at the same time..
lets see, what else have i been up too? we'll i have figured out a few places i'd like to apply for a job at as soon as i'm 18. i decided i would just wait until after my birthday, it'll make things a little bit easier for me. and the places i want to apply to you have to be 18 anyways.
i have just over 2 weeks until that happens btw. wow.
and other then that. well i haven't been doing much. school kind of took over after my return from the Mission trip. haha. not that i mind, i knew i'd have to catch up, but it was so much at once and now, it's really calm again and i don't know what to do with myself.
i think Thursday i will try to get my graduation announcements out. that would be good. or at least start getting them addressed. that will take forever... haha.
i feel like i'm at a really good place right now. no i don't have everything figured out. but i'm happy with who i am and what is going on around me. somethings are still up in the air, but i can't expect to have EVERYTHING in place at once right? and as of right now, i'm fine waiting for juuuust a bit.
but that might change in the morning ;)
random fact
i don't know how i will ever sleep anywhere besides my closet. i don't think i'll ever find a spot as cozy as it is in here!
i smell summer!
emilie
Sunday, May 8, 2011
warning, don't read this if you get the chills easily...
basically, i can't sleep. it's been over 2 weeks since my infamous babysitting job and it still just creeps me out. every little noise at night makes me jump. and so i decided to write it all out, to help get it out of my mind. so if you scare easily or just don't like creepy stories, don't read this post.
so i was babysitting a four year old boy, i've known him since birth pretty much. he's one of my mom's childcare kids. this is the first time however that i went over to his house to babysit. our day started off uneventful at 12, we ate lunch and watched a bit of Disney channel, he then informed me it was time for a nap at about 1. from then he slept til about 4:15. so far so good, i was able to get a ton of homework done, sweet! now i have a habit of always leaving the tv on when i babysit, even if i'm not watching, i feel like otherwise it's much to quite in the house, even more so when the kid is napping or sleeping. after the little boy got up from nap we played for awhile with his trains,the tv still on as background noise. i was leaning against the coffee table, and the way this house is set up, the hall way was to the right and behind me, he was facing it. this kind of hall was was one with the parents bedroom on one end, then down to the garage with the other rooms at the other, with a doorway in the middle to the living room. where we where. well as we sat there playing i just started to get this weird feeling, like someone else was in the house. but there shouldn't have been, i had just texted the parents talking about how they were on there way and would be there soon, nowhere near the house yet. i kinda just shook it off, i mean how many creepy babysitting movies/stories are out there, right? i was just feeling a bit off, i had seen a scary movie the night before. then, i heard a loud crash from down the hall way. i turned quickly and saw a shadow move across the wall. again, i somewhat shook it off, just creeped out right? then i looked back at the boy, his eyes huge and teary. "why is someone else in my house?!" well that was it, my keys were on the table behind me, and i somehow thought to grab them as i grabbed the boy, luckily my phone was in my pocket. i ran out the front door, slamming it behind me and out the gate that covers the front of there house, i pretty much threw the kid in the back seat (sorry... haha) and got in the drivers. i locked us in and turned on my car just in case then called the police. i don't know how the hell i made any sense on the phone, but she asked my address and what had happened, since i called the fremont emergency line and not newark on accident, she got a few details from me and then transferred me to newark after she had sent the police over. they asked more even more questions
"are you okay?" yes
"is everyone out of the house?" yes
"are you a babysitter?" yes
"were any windows open in the back?" no
"did you see the person?" no the boy did
"would he make up a story at all?" no
"how long have you known him personally?" his whole life
"is there any chance the parents came home early?" no i just talked to them
"is there a strange car out front?" not that i know of, but i don't live around here
"did you see anyone leave the house?" no but i can't see the front door.
and that kept going on until the police pulled up, first 2 cars pulled up, guns drawn, one walked over to my car and asked me to just tell him again what happened, asked if i had a key to the house or if i knew of any open doors or windows. i told him just the ones in the front of the should be and were when i got there, not the back, no i didn't have a key but the front door should be unlocked. at that point 4 more police cars had pulled up and they all were by the door, looking in windows just a bit. i called his parents at this point, then mine. i really don't remember at all what i said to them or if it made any sense at all, but they showed up within about 5 minutes, my parents close behind. another officer came over and told me K9 was on the way and that they wanted to send the dog in first before entering the house. he asked me if there were any pets in the house. i told him a bunny in a cage in the kitchen. what cracked me up (well later, not right then) was when he got on his radio and said " i have been advised that there is a bunny in the kitchen...... yes a bunny" i assume he was talking to the K9 unit, but i find it funny he said bunny. haha
so then the dog showed up. they sent him into the house, all standing around with guns drawn and pointed, while yelling for the person to come out, or whatever. at this point the little boy lost it. thankfully his mom was there, but he kept yelling and crying for them not to shoot in his house. i felt so bad.... i almost started crying at this point, and i really don't know why i never cried, or even screamed from the beginning actually. i guess adrenaline.
after about 10 minutes or so of them searching the house they came out and told us they had not found anyone, but wanted me and the parents to go into the house and look around and see if anything seemed out of place or missing. nothing really seemed to be. after that the officer told me that no they couldn't confirm that someone had been in the house, but that he wasn't going to tell me that nobody was either... he also asked if i had ever taken a babysitting class before. haha. he said he'd never had a teenager a) leave the house before calling b) think to lock them self and the kid in a car or something c)actually make any sense while giving details (i didn't think i did, but hey, guess i did okay) he also told me that he totally believed what me and the little boy heard and saw.
while we had been in the car, the little boy's mom asked him what he saw in the house. he kept making a claw like hand and saying "this" well that didn't make any sense to any of us. but later he said he saw "this" making the claw again, and a big eye. we assume what he means was he saw someone grabbing onto the corner of the wall and peeking into the living room. which scares the shit out of me, because that means the person would have been about 5 feet from my back.
now i slept with my mom that night, and i didn't sleep well. the little boy slept with his parents and convinced them to go out to dinner (he really didn't want to go back into the house) he hasn't brought it up since though, so i hope he is doing okay.
no, nothing was ever confirmed, but nothing was ruled out either. and it still scares me. i haven't babysat since, and actually turned down one job. i know that nothing like this will ever happen again... but it was the scariest moment of my life. by far.
and that my friends is the story of how i got the entire newark police force to respond to my babysitting job.
i don't ever want to have to do that again....
lets hope i can sleep now...
emilie
so i was babysitting a four year old boy, i've known him since birth pretty much. he's one of my mom's childcare kids. this is the first time however that i went over to his house to babysit. our day started off uneventful at 12, we ate lunch and watched a bit of Disney channel, he then informed me it was time for a nap at about 1. from then he slept til about 4:15. so far so good, i was able to get a ton of homework done, sweet! now i have a habit of always leaving the tv on when i babysit, even if i'm not watching, i feel like otherwise it's much to quite in the house, even more so when the kid is napping or sleeping. after the little boy got up from nap we played for awhile with his trains,the tv still on as background noise. i was leaning against the coffee table, and the way this house is set up, the hall way was to the right and behind me, he was facing it. this kind of hall was was one with the parents bedroom on one end, then down to the garage with the other rooms at the other, with a doorway in the middle to the living room. where we where. well as we sat there playing i just started to get this weird feeling, like someone else was in the house. but there shouldn't have been, i had just texted the parents talking about how they were on there way and would be there soon, nowhere near the house yet. i kinda just shook it off, i mean how many creepy babysitting movies/stories are out there, right? i was just feeling a bit off, i had seen a scary movie the night before. then, i heard a loud crash from down the hall way. i turned quickly and saw a shadow move across the wall. again, i somewhat shook it off, just creeped out right? then i looked back at the boy, his eyes huge and teary. "why is someone else in my house?!" well that was it, my keys were on the table behind me, and i somehow thought to grab them as i grabbed the boy, luckily my phone was in my pocket. i ran out the front door, slamming it behind me and out the gate that covers the front of there house, i pretty much threw the kid in the back seat (sorry... haha) and got in the drivers. i locked us in and turned on my car just in case then called the police. i don't know how the hell i made any sense on the phone, but she asked my address and what had happened, since i called the fremont emergency line and not newark on accident, she got a few details from me and then transferred me to newark after she had sent the police over. they asked more even more questions
"are you okay?" yes
"is everyone out of the house?" yes
"are you a babysitter?" yes
"were any windows open in the back?" no
"did you see the person?" no the boy did
"would he make up a story at all?" no
"how long have you known him personally?" his whole life
"is there any chance the parents came home early?" no i just talked to them
"is there a strange car out front?" not that i know of, but i don't live around here
"did you see anyone leave the house?" no but i can't see the front door.
and that kept going on until the police pulled up, first 2 cars pulled up, guns drawn, one walked over to my car and asked me to just tell him again what happened, asked if i had a key to the house or if i knew of any open doors or windows. i told him just the ones in the front of the should be and were when i got there, not the back, no i didn't have a key but the front door should be unlocked. at that point 4 more police cars had pulled up and they all were by the door, looking in windows just a bit. i called his parents at this point, then mine. i really don't remember at all what i said to them or if it made any sense at all, but they showed up within about 5 minutes, my parents close behind. another officer came over and told me K9 was on the way and that they wanted to send the dog in first before entering the house. he asked me if there were any pets in the house. i told him a bunny in a cage in the kitchen. what cracked me up (well later, not right then) was when he got on his radio and said " i have been advised that there is a bunny in the kitchen...... yes a bunny" i assume he was talking to the K9 unit, but i find it funny he said bunny. haha
so then the dog showed up. they sent him into the house, all standing around with guns drawn and pointed, while yelling for the person to come out, or whatever. at this point the little boy lost it. thankfully his mom was there, but he kept yelling and crying for them not to shoot in his house. i felt so bad.... i almost started crying at this point, and i really don't know why i never cried, or even screamed from the beginning actually. i guess adrenaline.
after about 10 minutes or so of them searching the house they came out and told us they had not found anyone, but wanted me and the parents to go into the house and look around and see if anything seemed out of place or missing. nothing really seemed to be. after that the officer told me that no they couldn't confirm that someone had been in the house, but that he wasn't going to tell me that nobody was either... he also asked if i had ever taken a babysitting class before. haha. he said he'd never had a teenager a) leave the house before calling b) think to lock them self and the kid in a car or something c)actually make any sense while giving details (i didn't think i did, but hey, guess i did okay) he also told me that he totally believed what me and the little boy heard and saw.
while we had been in the car, the little boy's mom asked him what he saw in the house. he kept making a claw like hand and saying "this" well that didn't make any sense to any of us. but later he said he saw "this" making the claw again, and a big eye. we assume what he means was he saw someone grabbing onto the corner of the wall and peeking into the living room. which scares the shit out of me, because that means the person would have been about 5 feet from my back.
now i slept with my mom that night, and i didn't sleep well. the little boy slept with his parents and convinced them to go out to dinner (he really didn't want to go back into the house) he hasn't brought it up since though, so i hope he is doing okay.
no, nothing was ever confirmed, but nothing was ruled out either. and it still scares me. i haven't babysat since, and actually turned down one job. i know that nothing like this will ever happen again... but it was the scariest moment of my life. by far.
and that my friends is the story of how i got the entire newark police force to respond to my babysitting job.
i don't ever want to have to do that again....
lets hope i can sleep now...
emilie
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
what does 2 + 2 equal again...?
i'm not as stressed anymore, i'm sure you'll all be glad to know. i got a TON of work done Tuesday and Wednesday. of course i still have a lot to do, but i have Thursday and some of Friday plus the weekend. i feel like it's gonna all work out now. i'm not in over me head :)
basically since i'm an Early Childhood Studies major, i play with children, take pictures and write what they do down, then analyze it, put it all together and turn that in. it's a lot more work then it sounds. the first part is fun. then it kinda sucks. but i actually really like school. i like learning. well besides math (i'm studying though!) my brain does really well with the child development stuff, i'm pretty good with history and English, even my criminal procedure class i do well in. math... well that's when the numbers start flipping and moving on the page. i can't remember my times tables worth crap (yes i have practiced and practiced. trust me, i've spent hours trying to get that thing down) and i use my fingers a lot. when i understand it and can focus, i do well. when i get frustrated, i start messing up. and because numbers are flipping everywhere (i have dyslexia, i have been able to overcome the spelling and writing issues, besides spelling, for the most part... the math is still the fight) i get frustrated quickly. it's a never ending cycle that i have to work through. it sucks, and frankly at times it makes me feel pretty dumb that i can't grasp simple math concepts easily. (please don't use this against me. because it really does suck) but it's a part of my life that i have to work out. so if you ever see me, please don't ask me to solve a math problem. i might kill you. i'm not saying anyone should feel sorry for me, or my teachers should go easy on me, it's my fight, not someone elses, but it's nice when people understand why i have such issues with it. it's not that i don't try, it just takes more work and effort for me then most. and also a lot longer to solve most problems :p
besides my math struggles, school really hasn't been that bad. it's packed full of work, but nothing that has been super overwhelming. i feel like i really have a handle on everything at the moment. and finals will be done with in 2 weeks. i can't wait. then it's almost my birthday, then graduation :D
once i'm 18 i plan on finding a job, so i can start making some of my own money besides babysitting (sorry, still to soon parents, give me a few more weeks) and then just enjoying my summer. staying up all night, beach trips, sleeping in and laying out in the sun... i cannot wait.
well time for some bed so i can get up in the morning. busy day! gonna hit the gym, wash my clothes and sheets, change my bed sheets and clean my room, plus throw in some school and skyping with Kev :) and then my last play for my theatre class (well now it really sounds busy!)
random fact
i hate nutella. i think its the most disgusting thing ever.
emilie
basically since i'm an Early Childhood Studies major, i play with children, take pictures and write what they do down, then analyze it, put it all together and turn that in. it's a lot more work then it sounds. the first part is fun. then it kinda sucks. but i actually really like school. i like learning. well besides math (i'm studying though!) my brain does really well with the child development stuff, i'm pretty good with history and English, even my criminal procedure class i do well in. math... well that's when the numbers start flipping and moving on the page. i can't remember my times tables worth crap (yes i have practiced and practiced. trust me, i've spent hours trying to get that thing down) and i use my fingers a lot. when i understand it and can focus, i do well. when i get frustrated, i start messing up. and because numbers are flipping everywhere (i have dyslexia, i have been able to overcome the spelling and writing issues, besides spelling, for the most part... the math is still the fight) i get frustrated quickly. it's a never ending cycle that i have to work through. it sucks, and frankly at times it makes me feel pretty dumb that i can't grasp simple math concepts easily. (please don't use this against me. because it really does suck) but it's a part of my life that i have to work out. so if you ever see me, please don't ask me to solve a math problem. i might kill you. i'm not saying anyone should feel sorry for me, or my teachers should go easy on me, it's my fight, not someone elses, but it's nice when people understand why i have such issues with it. it's not that i don't try, it just takes more work and effort for me then most. and also a lot longer to solve most problems :p
besides my math struggles, school really hasn't been that bad. it's packed full of work, but nothing that has been super overwhelming. i feel like i really have a handle on everything at the moment. and finals will be done with in 2 weeks. i can't wait. then it's almost my birthday, then graduation :D
once i'm 18 i plan on finding a job, so i can start making some of my own money besides babysitting (sorry, still to soon parents, give me a few more weeks) and then just enjoying my summer. staying up all night, beach trips, sleeping in and laying out in the sun... i cannot wait.
well time for some bed so i can get up in the morning. busy day! gonna hit the gym, wash my clothes and sheets, change my bed sheets and clean my room, plus throw in some school and skyping with Kev :) and then my last play for my theatre class (well now it really sounds busy!)
random fact
i hate nutella. i think its the most disgusting thing ever.
emilie
Monday, May 2, 2011
Mission Trip = opened eyes + opened heart
well i've actually been back since Saturday, but i've been busy. what can i say? i had to make up a week of school, plus registering for classes, which has been a pain, and take placement testing. which is not going to be finished until the 23rd. a mere 3 days before i turn 18 and enter the adult world for real.
yay?
well lets start with the craziness. my last post was the day after my scariest babysitting job ever. and since then i have turned down a babysitting job. to soon. sorry parents, but that was f***ing scary. (i feel that was a good and appropriate use of the f bomb)
since then i went to SF on a mission trip and you know, changed my life, heart and some cool stuff like that.
i can never look at a homeless person the same way. i can never look at the "ghetto" the same. i can never forget the little girl and boy rejoicing that they will see their dad for the first time in years because he's getting out of jail. i can never forget "huggy muggys" or dyrke who is hurting and acts out against his teachers and single mom at 4 years old, hard of hearing without working hearing aids.
my heart is changed.
i'll never forget walking in the Tenderloin. seeing broken lives, but not broken people, around me. i'll never forget actually stopping and talking and listening to find out their stories.
i'll never forget any of it.
my heart aches.
but i've been blessed to see it.
i'll never forget counting how many times that one man came to get a tray of food from me at the free dinning hall of St. Vincent De Paul (i stopped counting after 10, many others were just like him)
i can't forget finding out the average age of a homeless person in SF is 9 years old. 9.
i can't forget the smile from the young man i handed a granola bar to, as he told me he hadn't eaten since the day before, and that was an apple.
i'll never forget Joe, who told us we had nothing to be worried about on the streets. or Ramen as he hoped on his princess scooter and joined us for a bagel and juice.
i can't forget it. i just wish i could better share it with everyone. i wish i could share the pain of hearing that children, ages 0-5, know how to drop to the floor just in case there is a drive by shooting at their school. i wish i could show you the pain of hearing that the girl who comes to the afterschool program in Richmond? she's dead. shot. gone. and i wish you could be punched in the gut by the poem that was written in her memory.
so this is how i'm going to share. right here. my heart hurts. it's broken. i fully intend on going back to SF, not to pier 39, but to the inner city. to hand out meals, to just sit and talk. to go back to Richmond and hug those little girls i may never get to see alive again. i've never felt a feeling like that.
no this trip wasn't all pain. i loved talking the elderly to the Asian Art Museum. and it was pretty fun to watch Mary lean forward in her wheelchair to poke Kristen in the butt and then giggle. it was also pretty funny to watch her try to "run away" in the same wheelchair.
but that doesn't heal my heart. i'm convicted.
i want to go back.
and i want others to go with me...
random fact
chicken and waffles are amazing. but what makes them more amazing is being surrounded by a family that adopts you for who you are. broken and beautiful.
emilie
yay?
well lets start with the craziness. my last post was the day after my scariest babysitting job ever. and since then i have turned down a babysitting job. to soon. sorry parents, but that was f***ing scary. (i feel that was a good and appropriate use of the f bomb)
since then i went to SF on a mission trip and you know, changed my life, heart and some cool stuff like that.
i can never look at a homeless person the same way. i can never look at the "ghetto" the same. i can never forget the little girl and boy rejoicing that they will see their dad for the first time in years because he's getting out of jail. i can never forget "huggy muggys" or dyrke who is hurting and acts out against his teachers and single mom at 4 years old, hard of hearing without working hearing aids.
my heart is changed.
i'll never forget walking in the Tenderloin. seeing broken lives, but not broken people, around me. i'll never forget actually stopping and talking and listening to find out their stories.
i'll never forget any of it.
my heart aches.
but i've been blessed to see it.
i'll never forget counting how many times that one man came to get a tray of food from me at the free dinning hall of St. Vincent De Paul (i stopped counting after 10, many others were just like him)
i can't forget finding out the average age of a homeless person in SF is 9 years old. 9.
i can't forget the smile from the young man i handed a granola bar to, as he told me he hadn't eaten since the day before, and that was an apple.
i'll never forget Joe, who told us we had nothing to be worried about on the streets. or Ramen as he hoped on his princess scooter and joined us for a bagel and juice.
i can't forget it. i just wish i could better share it with everyone. i wish i could share the pain of hearing that children, ages 0-5, know how to drop to the floor just in case there is a drive by shooting at their school. i wish i could show you the pain of hearing that the girl who comes to the afterschool program in Richmond? she's dead. shot. gone. and i wish you could be punched in the gut by the poem that was written in her memory.
so this is how i'm going to share. right here. my heart hurts. it's broken. i fully intend on going back to SF, not to pier 39, but to the inner city. to hand out meals, to just sit and talk. to go back to Richmond and hug those little girls i may never get to see alive again. i've never felt a feeling like that.
no this trip wasn't all pain. i loved talking the elderly to the Asian Art Museum. and it was pretty fun to watch Mary lean forward in her wheelchair to poke Kristen in the butt and then giggle. it was also pretty funny to watch her try to "run away" in the same wheelchair.
but that doesn't heal my heart. i'm convicted.
i want to go back.
and i want others to go with me...
random fact
chicken and waffles are amazing. but what makes them more amazing is being surrounded by a family that adopts you for who you are. broken and beautiful.
emilie
Sunday, April 24, 2011
no witty title here, just a scared girl...
yesterday was a scary day.
i was babysitting for some friends and the little boy (4 years old) and i were playing with his trains on the floor. i just had this weird feeling that someone else was in the house, even though i knew no one else should be. then all of the sudden i heard a huge crash from in the hallway or in one of the bedrooms past it. it wasn't a door slamming, it was something falling. i turned and saw a shadow move across the wall, i look back at the little boy whose eyes are huge and he says "why is someone in the hallway?" at that point i picked up him up, grabbed my keys and ran out the door. i locked us in my car and called the police, i'm not sure how i made any sense on the phone but within minutes i had 5 police cars around me and a K9 unit on the way. they told me to stay in my car with the boy. i then called his parents who were close to home and told them what had happened, i'm pretty sure i made even less sense to them on the phone, but they where there within minutes of me calling, i then called my parents who also got there quickly. after all of that, the police found nobody or anything inside of the house, and nothing looked disturbed. but i know someone was there.
basically i could make this a really creepy post and tell you more about what the boy actually saw... but i don't think i'm going to go there, i know someone was there and they had a really good chance to get out without someone seeing them while i was in my car because of the way the house is set up....
this had made top scary moment of my life as of right now. and i'm pretty sure i'll stay in like top 3 forever. i'm pretty glad i'm leaving actually and going to SF for the mission trip this afternoon. i feel really bad for the little boy and his parents. he was freaked out once i left the house, and i don't blame him since i'm not the one who actually saw the person and i'm super freaked out...
no random fact for today, i'm to tried to even think. i didn't sleep at all well last night.
see you after the mission trip.
emilie
i was babysitting for some friends and the little boy (4 years old) and i were playing with his trains on the floor. i just had this weird feeling that someone else was in the house, even though i knew no one else should be. then all of the sudden i heard a huge crash from in the hallway or in one of the bedrooms past it. it wasn't a door slamming, it was something falling. i turned and saw a shadow move across the wall, i look back at the little boy whose eyes are huge and he says "why is someone in the hallway?" at that point i picked up him up, grabbed my keys and ran out the door. i locked us in my car and called the police, i'm not sure how i made any sense on the phone but within minutes i had 5 police cars around me and a K9 unit on the way. they told me to stay in my car with the boy. i then called his parents who were close to home and told them what had happened, i'm pretty sure i made even less sense to them on the phone, but they where there within minutes of me calling, i then called my parents who also got there quickly. after all of that, the police found nobody or anything inside of the house, and nothing looked disturbed. but i know someone was there.
basically i could make this a really creepy post and tell you more about what the boy actually saw... but i don't think i'm going to go there, i know someone was there and they had a really good chance to get out without someone seeing them while i was in my car because of the way the house is set up....
this had made top scary moment of my life as of right now. and i'm pretty sure i'll stay in like top 3 forever. i'm pretty glad i'm leaving actually and going to SF for the mission trip this afternoon. i feel really bad for the little boy and his parents. he was freaked out once i left the house, and i don't blame him since i'm not the one who actually saw the person and i'm super freaked out...
no random fact for today, i'm to tried to even think. i didn't sleep at all well last night.
see you after the mission trip.
emilie
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