did i just have a grown up moment?

ah, spring break is over and i have to say it was a good one. i feel like even though i didn't do much, i grew a lot. 
i got to see someone and figure out a lot of answers for my life that i had been searching for. i also messaged one of my good friends Eric, from Work Crew, and that kid can always make me feel better, no matter what. he encourages me and helps me figure out the tough answers.
i got to see Kevin as well and hang out. that was good, we got to catch up and everything, plus i got my hugs in until i see him next, probably at my graduation.
and that's really all i did during spring break. i also slept a lot. like a lot. i would wake up and eat and then nap. and then wake up and eat and go to bed. it was wonderful (no i'm not a real party person in case you couldn't tell)
lets see... i got some homework done and my room cleaned, so at least that was a bit productive right? :)
oh i also was invited into a Honors Society, Phi Theta Kappa. this makes me happy :) (just don't let them see this blog, i never capitalize at the start of a sentence or my i's, but i actually do that on purpose sooo...)

i feel like at this point in my life, i'm really finding God, it's exciting to me. i mean, i feel like i fall a lot as well, but i'm learning and learning and growing and searching and finding and i love it. i feel different then i ever have before. i feel happy and carefree (well, sometimes, school ruins that) and like i belong. even as i sit in my bed i feel like i belong. like i found my place. like someone out there is loving me (well He is) and i'm just happy. it feels like that really amazing summer day that goes on forever and everything goes right and you get sun kissed and nobody is mad or upset about anything. that's what it feels like. and i love it.
sure i still mess up. i mean, i still have a hard time reading my Bible, but i find myself praying a lot more. i feel myself being whispered to more, and i find myself responding as well. i don't understand why the God of everything decides that i'm worth his time, but i'm glad He does :)

random fact
i have never been sunburned in my life. even if i get a little pink one day, it's gone within hours.
emilie